Friday, September 29, 2006
Grrr blog
Stupid blog.
Among other things this blog is pissing me off. Every time I republish it or publish a post it takes forever.
I tried to edit my links but that didn't seem to come through when I republished.
oh well
Among other things this blog is pissing me off. Every time I republish it or publish a post it takes forever.
I tried to edit my links but that didn't seem to come through when I republished.
oh well
Thursday, September 28, 2006
The Future
Plan A shall succede, if not then plan B. Plan D invloves me living out of my car. :-(
I continue to look back, regreting when I should be Fixing the future. Maybe If I repeate this statement a few more times it will sink in.
I continue to look back, regreting when I should be Fixing the future. Maybe If I repeate this statement a few more times it will sink in.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
I feel like an addict
I feel like a drug addict trying to put his life back together after rehab.
Words cannot express how angry my brain is at my mouth.
I am unfeeling, not understanding, completly in the dark.
This is me.
The ritalin works. It works extreemly well the first time I take it during the day. It usually takes an hour before I feel the effects. After about 3 hours it seems to fade. Recent experiements are inclusive to continued same day dosages.
The last six months have been a gigantic waste of time.
I have many regrets. It is time to step forward and forget about regreting the past.
I can not change the past I can only change the future.
Words cannot express how angry my brain is at my mouth.
I am unfeeling, not understanding, completly in the dark.
This is me.
The ritalin works. It works extreemly well the first time I take it during the day. It usually takes an hour before I feel the effects. After about 3 hours it seems to fade. Recent experiements are inclusive to continued same day dosages.
The last six months have been a gigantic waste of time.
I have many regrets. It is time to step forward and forget about regreting the past.
I can not change the past I can only change the future.
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
What a waste
Well here I am again. I can finally admit I have ultimitaly wasted the last 6-9 months of my life, perhaps more. No, lets just say in the past 9 months I have gotten nothing worthwile acomplished.
I have been plain sitting on my ass for the last six months. Here I am as Uesless as ever.
I keep wanting to go back in time to that perfect moment eleven months ago. If I could go back I could fix everything, but could I really?
I am just as unalbe to stay on task now as back then. I must be productive. At the very least I have removed the greatest distraction from my life, Computer Games. I will just replace that disctraction with another. First it was Television shows, and now Books. I suppose books are the best distraction, easy to control, but they are way to portable. They don't impact my sleeping at all though. If anything they help. Thats at least something.
I must somehow concentrate on finishing school. X, Y, Z and the other one must be completed. I have got to finish this thing then ESCAPE from Michigan. One thing at a time. Back to work on X.
I have been plain sitting on my ass for the last six months. Here I am as Uesless as ever.
I keep wanting to go back in time to that perfect moment eleven months ago. If I could go back I could fix everything, but could I really?
I am just as unalbe to stay on task now as back then. I must be productive. At the very least I have removed the greatest distraction from my life, Computer Games. I will just replace that disctraction with another. First it was Television shows, and now Books. I suppose books are the best distraction, easy to control, but they are way to portable. They don't impact my sleeping at all though. If anything they help. Thats at least something.
I must somehow concentrate on finishing school. X, Y, Z and the other one must be completed. I have got to finish this thing then ESCAPE from Michigan. One thing at a time. Back to work on X.
