My misinterpretation of real life

I have started to Censor myself. If there is something I don't want to talk about then I don't bring up the topic that relates to that. I'm not sure if this is a bad thing necessarly but it does bring up some intresting questions about how I speak to other people...

I am a weak person, I am hopelessly addicted to Counter-Strike. Probably related to that I am a horrible writer. I sit there and I am supposed to write about one thing but I can not. I get distracted, I wander, I am unable to complete my task. Even with the Ritilan I can not do what I must. I have been on Ritalan since first grade. I should be able to cope without it. I should have learned how to operate on my own. I can't I can only concentrate on things I am intrested in, busy work is not that bad. Things I'm not intrested in get thrown to the side. I just can't do them. WHY?

I hope things get better, I hope I graduate from Kettering. I really want to finish my degree. I want to get a job at Google. I want to Travel the world. None of this will happen unless I can concentrate on things I DO NOT WANT TO DO.

I want to improve my skill as a Counter-Strike player. My teammates and I don't see eye to eye on how to acomplish this......