My misinterpretation of real life

That seems like much simpler question. However it too is aching; Done with school. Fast paced good perks job with a software enginering firm. To be confident when meeting people I don't know. Never to shy away for fear of getting hurt.

I want my determination and willpower back.

I walk downstairs look into the mirror and wonder. Who is that person? I control that person? I am that Person? I have no Identiy with which to feel. I am lost in time. Out of place. What am I doing here?

I am who I am even if I don't know who that is.

Today I came to fully realize one very important part of who I am. Retroactive.....


It is very easy for me to quickly say here is where we went wrong. I want my first instinct to be; How do we fix this? Again this is a problem with moving forward. As much as I can learn from the past I must continue to look for solutions, not identify problems.